Is anyone out there?
Things have been weird for me over the past year. They’ve been weird and incredibly shitty. I’ve spent a lot of time lying face down in a metaphorical pool of excrement which I will from now on call my “lowest point”. During this time, I lost a lot of confidence, mainly in my writing, but also in pretty much every other aspect of my life. Things began to change for the better a few weeks ago after seeing an old friend. She said some words that encouraged me and some that kicked the crap out of me, but in a positive way.
I’ve spent a lot of time pushing myself into a corner and ensuring that everyone else is at arms length which is incredibly unhealthy. I spent a long period measuring myself up against many others – writers, people in general – and feeling hopeless. I’ve cut, scratched and burned my way to where I stand today. After many hours of talking and many pills down the hatch, I’m beginning to feel like a new version of me. That version of me would like to blog about books again.
However, I know that many times in the past I have said this and failed to keep up any kind of schedule. That isn’t fair to the people who stop by and it isn’t fair to the authors and publishers I support. For the past few months I’ve been writing elsewhere and about other things, allowing me to rediscover my voice. So, from today I am aiming to restart Utter Biblio, but I will make no promises about regularity of content, nor what I will be reviewing. The only promise I’m making is to try and write about the books that I enjoy; the ones that are important to me. There will be no word counts, no memes or challenges or projects.
I want to go back to when I’d write about why I loved a book and why you should read it too.